Wednesday, January 26, 2011

Results of doctor visit on Tuesday

Lumpectomy? Mastectomy?…the envelope please…

and our winner is: MASTECTOMY!!! Left breast.From yesterday—my oncologist and surgeon completely agree that the mastectomy is necessary, and with access to all the reports and images, it is clear to Frederic and I there is quite a bit of breast tissue compromised by the DCIS. The very good news is they expect to fully "cure", (their words not mine)- this cancer with surgery, because of the stage and the non-invasiveness= grade zero. That said, the final diagnosis will be settled during surgery, but they expect no surprises. The good news is I can expect no radiation OR chemo therapy. That part is a great blessing!Slept well last night, but woke feeling a struggle in my heart- sadness that i have to put my family through an ordeal, and also that I have to suffer. So I'm working on the suffering part—careful balance not to be a "heroic" boob, (yes all pun references to breasts are intentional)- but also to honor my fears. Love and full chested embraces to you-

4 comments:

elizabeth said...

Next Step to set the date- looks like the week of February 7- thanks for the amazing love you are generating

Carleen Brice said...

Dear E, Thank you for setting up this way for us to keep in touch. I totally get that you wouldn't want to have to keep telling the same info over and over and that you could end up feeling like you were reassuring all of us, instead of vice versa. I'm glad your surgery is right before Valentine's Day. Think of all the love that will be generating around the world as you heal! You know I'm sending love right now.

Ingrid said...

Goddess E --- who to me has always been 'E for Energy'

I am sending you my love --- and all the positive vibes I can collect from the west side. You are, as always an inspiration --- even in the face of uncertainty and change.

Love you soooooo much and thank you for sharing and allowing your fan club to connect with you in this way through this journey. Be well!

Sarah said...

YES! A heroic BOOB you are, and a heroic boob you will forever be!